Sometimes the road gets so hard. Sometimes I want to quit. Last night was one of those nights. I considered packing it all in. I can’t though. His love compels me.
I was plagued by fear last night. All weekend really. It was a dark oppression. It seems that even if you know an attack is from The Enemy, it doesn’t help much. He knows just the right things to say that shake you to the core. I thought to myself, if I just give up then He will leave me alone. The thoughts were so real. The road has been so long. But then, I immediately thought about the girls being abused. I just know ONE DAY it WILL be worth it!!! I am sitting here with tears filling my eyes because the fight is so real and I so badly long for that day to come where I can rescue just one girl. God has placed this desire so strongly on my heart. He is the only reason I have not walked away.
I heard a lady on K-Love tonight who gave testimony about her young son who struggled with anxiety. He prayed to God before He went to bed that night, that God would take away all his fears. The next morning, he woke up and felt so much better. His teachers even noticed and said he was like a different person. I was so blessed by that. If God can do it for that little boy, He will do it for me. This boy had so much faith. He held nothing back, even in His prayer. He asked God to take away ALL His fears. God is Faithful.
To all of you who have ever prayed for me. Thank you. It means so much.